I've learnt something today.
I've learnt what it is to have a few days off of work and nothing planned. I've also learnt what it is to have to work Monday to Friday 9 to 5. Even though this isn't a true representation of work. I know I'm going to stop and I'm going to become a student again. Doing what I think I truly love best. Learning. I've been lucky in that I've enjoyed my placement and I know what I want to aim for when I finish. Which also luckily means I know what needs to be done and what to aim for next year.
Which mean I might actually get there. I need something to aim at. Something, preferably just inside my ability to do. Because when I get there, all boundaries reset themselves. And to be honest, there is something to do today. I pick up my keys to move tomorrow. And the packing isn't quite finished. But Mum doesn't get here till about 4 ish. and somehow that becomes go time and the rest of today, well I've done bits and bats, but it has mostly been aimless wondering since then. And since I have been most remiss in writing my blog, well, here it is.
I'm gonna miss this place. I'm also really not going to, but this house has seen a lot and taught me a lot too. For the first time in my life, I have brought my own food properly on my own and not in a group. I've paid bills, I've had to call in repairmen and I've learnt to cope with things that are lopsided shabby and plain wrong. Combined with working for a year and learning how to get on with work colleges and actually having to sort out my finances, this house holds a lot of memories.
On the other hand, things are going to be good next year. I'm going to be living with a very good friend, in a house which isn't falling down around my ears, and without ants everywhere. I'm going to be moving into my final year at university, and the view has opened up some. Not much but the houses across the way are further away. And best of all, my fiancée is a lot closer now that he has moved to town too.
All in all things are looking up. And to stop me looking out of the window every time a car comes in the hopes that it is my mother, even though she isn't due for another hour, I'm off to play World of Goo.
I've learnt what it is to have a few days off of work and nothing planned. I've also learnt what it is to have to work Monday to Friday 9 to 5. Even though this isn't a true representation of work. I know I'm going to stop and I'm going to become a student again. Doing what I think I truly love best. Learning. I've been lucky in that I've enjoyed my placement and I know what I want to aim for when I finish. Which also luckily means I know what needs to be done and what to aim for next year.
Which mean I might actually get there. I need something to aim at. Something, preferably just inside my ability to do. Because when I get there, all boundaries reset themselves. And to be honest, there is something to do today. I pick up my keys to move tomorrow. And the packing isn't quite finished. But Mum doesn't get here till about 4 ish. and somehow that becomes go time and the rest of today, well I've done bits and bats, but it has mostly been aimless wondering since then. And since I have been most remiss in writing my blog, well, here it is.
I'm gonna miss this place. I'm also really not going to, but this house has seen a lot and taught me a lot too. For the first time in my life, I have brought my own food properly on my own and not in a group. I've paid bills, I've had to call in repairmen and I've learnt to cope with things that are lopsided shabby and plain wrong. Combined with working for a year and learning how to get on with work colleges and actually having to sort out my finances, this house holds a lot of memories.
On the other hand, things are going to be good next year. I'm going to be living with a very good friend, in a house which isn't falling down around my ears, and without ants everywhere. I'm going to be moving into my final year at university, and the view has opened up some. Not much but the houses across the way are further away. And best of all, my fiancée is a lot closer now that he has moved to town too.
All in all things are looking up. And to stop me looking out of the window every time a car comes in the hopes that it is my mother, even though she isn't due for another hour, I'm off to play World of Goo.
